KISMET

Hi,

I don’t know how or when we will going to meet each other. I don’t even know if I’d already met you or if so, when will you ask me out. All I know is that I want to make this relationship work whenever this happen. Just like what normal dreamers do. I really want to have a relationship that will last forever.

First and foremost, I would like to tell you that I am a very outgoing person. You may see me act silly and weird when I’m with my friends and way far different if it’s just you and I. When you think that I’m a little out of control with my emotions, feel free to tell me. I tend to become serious if in need. I value my friends but I will value you more than them, because I know at some point they will understand me.
Second Communication: I understand if you’re busy with schedule of if you’re doing something, but if you find a minute to text me what, why, here and there without even having me asking for it, I will certainly appreciate it, “just let me know”. I would really, really love it if you call me before you go to sleep and share me stories of what happen to you throughout the day. I would love to know that I am probably the last voice you hear for the night and I would really love it if you sent me a good morning text, just to inform me that my better half is already awake and that gives me a sign that you always remembers me everytime you woke up. I don’t care how early in the morning it is, I still love it. And I hope, you and I could be on the same roof so that I could prepare your breakfast or even watch you while you are sleeping.
As much as I would love to see you, I know we have busy schedules, it’ll be fine seeing you once or even twice a week, but if you’re free, why not more? That would make me happy very happy, but there will be days when I would want to hang out with my friends, and I’m sure you would like to have time with your friends too. Just text or call me when you get home, and I shall do the same.
Most importantly we should know our own priorities and responsibilities. I understand a lot of things, mostly because I’ve been through a lot. Just let me know before anything else. I know at some point we will tend to argue small stuffs, that’s because we are still adjusting with the traits of each other. One thing is for sure, it’s just you and I nothing else.

Sincerely,
James

JONNELLE RANARA

"You made me believe that even the asshole person I know in this world, could have a big heart, after all :) "

The first time you ask us to answer the trainor-survey I felt like just a normal trainors-self-survey-form thing we usually did in school. You know writing the negative and positive traits of our trainor so that maybe they could change what must be change for good and for good of all his students. :)

But as time pass by, that "Trainors-self-survey-from" seemed to be an "Appreciation Letter" for me. Everytime before we take the assessment you always say "okay answer first the survey before we proceed to your assessment..."

Yes, exactly ! I know what to do.

To give you an idea of what I usually write for him It goes like this...

"Thank you Jon ! keep in my mind that when I say it, I mean it. I hope that by saying this in unlimited way doesn't spoil its meaning to you. Thanks for teaching us everything under the sun not just the things that we have to learn in our training but most especially the things that we have to learn in life.
 We are learning for more than TP's paying for. Thank you for teaching us without making us feel like we're such a dummies and for your selfless imparting us your knowledge. Thanks for giving us the EXAMS of our lives, exam which almost felt like a FINAL EXAMS in school.

You know what you have been so hard on us... Oh come on I know you know that :)

But like a father, you only want whats the best for us, like a father you wont help us when we fall on the ground while playing basketball or whatever you name it. Rather you would look on us with your tiger-looking eyes that says "Get up son! I believe in you. I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT""

"just imagine the feeling that someone still believes in you even when you have fallen a thousand times, feels good right??? "

You are such a blessings to everyone of us.

You have unselfishly shared your story to us and that may be the reason why we feel so close to you. I mean, few trainors only do that -- sharing their life stories and showing their students their weakness and soft sides. Who are we to be treated like this by a fully-experienced highly-respected man... Just honored :)

Well maybe this is your calling. With that position and love you have for teaching! Who would oppose that this is really your calling. You are born and meant to do this.

For those times you would utter the magic words "okay answer first the survey before we proceed to your assessment..." I thank him because I never ran out of things to write..never....I'll be forever be thankful for a gift like you, Great Trainors still do exist...Thank God.

PS:

To future trainee of this trainor. Guys! Believe what you are about to experience and forget what you heard :)
best wishes....

I Promise To Myself

Promise myself to be strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.


Talk to health happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.


To make my friends feel that there is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true. To think only of the best, to work only for the best and expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about on my own. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to greater achievements of the future. To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature I meet a smile. To give so much time to the improvement of myself that I have no time to criticize others. To be too large for fear and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

A grade of 4.0 .?

At first I thought, I am ready on what are the possible things that might happen...but now , I'm here very depressed and down on what had happened. Honestly, I‘m not bitter because I failed S.A.D. defense as a matter of fact, before I enter the defense room and present to the panelist, I already told to myself that I have a very big chance of failing. Pero the way the panelist prasie my hardships duh !are very contradicting on the grades that they gave to me triple 4.0 ? shit ! anu ako mangmang. I know I’m not good in programming but I know deep inside I know my effort I know na may kabuluhan yung ginawa ko they gave me a 4.0 kasi they are very bothered kung kakayanin ko ba sa S.S.D. ee mga anak ng teteng naman pala sila ee..why they don’t try me. “IF THER’S A WILL THERE’S A WAY”.  

In two weeks I came up almost the same output with the group that kicked me out. Then they got 2.63 fuck sila na mismo nagsabi di nalalayo yung gawa ko sa kanila pero yung grade na binigay nila ee napakalayo sa katotohanan. 4.0 para sa docu .? para sa Presentation.? Para Prototype.? Para sa Question and Answer .? sinong tangang maniniwala na makakakuha ako ng 4.0 nung time na yun ee may nakapanuod sa defense ko. They told me MAGALING yung ginawa ko. PILI lang yung sinagot ko ng tagalog as a matter of fact they amazed sa mga sagot ko. They didn’t expect na ganun ako kagaling magsalita ng english. Shit naman bakit ba naman kasi nangyayari sakin to!’

Test of FAITH.??? DAMN !!!... ee ako nga amost gumagawa nung grupo pa kami ee ako pa inalis nila .? well that is a past ! next is  di ba nila nakita yung effort ko 3weeks para magprepare para sa lahat .?  nakakainis ...di ko tlga kayang tanggapin yung 4.0 na grade ee..ayaw ko tlga !!!..

Another thing is how can I get a triple 4.0 knowing the fact na one of the panelist is laging nasa labas he doesnt even heard me defending my system. Anu to lokohan .???

I said before that no matter what happened I’m going to accept it ! pero yung ganito.??? NO WAY..it’s a BIG NO NO !.

DAMN !!!

Out-of-the-Blue

Saint Joseph Shrine

Well kanina habang pauwi na ako di ko inaasahan na sa pagbaba ko ng jeep ee sa simbahan ako dadalhin ng aking mga paa..Di naman nakakapagtaka kasi lagi naman ako nagsisimba ee...pero iba yung pakiramdam kanina may biglang nagtulak sakin na pumasok sa adoration chapel ng Saint Joseph Shrine sa may Anonas di ko mapigilan na lumuha habang kausap Siya ramdam na ramdam ko yung presence Niya kanina. Alam ko na nasa tabi ko lang siya..

Salamat at nabigyan ulit ako ng panibagong lakas ng loob na kaharapin ulit tong mga pagsubok na kinakaharap ko...

Salamat po talaga !

EXPECT LESS

When you least expect, something great might come along. Something better than you even planned for.If you want to avoid disappointments, expect less. As a person, I think of the worst happenings first, before the good ones. When it happens, it won’t shock or hurt me anymore. Sometimes when you’re good at one thing, people tend to expect more from you. Like everything you do "NEEDS'' to be stronger and stronger each time. They think that it’s easy for you to do such things but the little they know, it’s already pressuring you to push yourself more and more just to please them.

Parents expect high from their children. When the child doesn’t meet their expectations, they tend to compare their child to other children. And it hurts for the child to hear such things. Even if the point of being compared is to challenge the child, it doesn’t come out that way. It would only hurt their feelings. My parents always compare me to other kids, and I was thinking, they should just support me rather than rubbing it to my face that they’re better and I am useless. Anyway, I just hate being compared and put into high expectations.

I believe that when you expect less, good things come out from it

A night to be cherish...

I didn’t expect that those people that I abandoned before will be the same people who will be by my side when I needed a friend to lean on…nakakatouch sobra…kanina while waiting for my turn to defend my SO-CALLED “PROPOSED SYSTEM”.  There are group of friends (actually there are my classmates : Loydie, Lorat, Ash, Gab, Rea and yung boyfriend ni Ash we used to call them as PUCHOS)na lumapit sakin to pray for me, I’m so blessed that I have them because of them mas lalong nag-ignite yung drive ko to pass that fucking system study. Well, at the very first place they asked me to be their groupmate but because of giving too much importance for tainted friendship I’ve refused their offer.

Hmmm actually as of now I have this a little regret in my heart na sana I just broke my promise na lang with her  edi sana I am enjoying my entire S.A.D. life with this people.

But then, I am already here all I have to do is to fight to pass this subject. I know I’m so ambitious to think na magagawa ko to but who knows we’ll see on FINAL ORAL DEFENSE…

Thanks sa lahat ng mga taong sumusuporta sakin salamat talaga...